This post is between BF AND I (so please do not read)
but if you want to continue reading this post.fine.
but *WARNING!* before you start reading this post
Please do not comment/or advise me/him ANYTHING.Thanks.


Last night, i movie-ED with my door closed.
I cried.Not because of the movie but my heart doesn't feel right.
Just feel that bf doesn't want to talk to me.
by the way he sms: "so you got any work need to bring home to do?..etc"
What does he mean by that?
From my view, i feel that he wants me to be bringing back work to do
so that i will be busy and will speak lesser to him or something.
I really miss the times when he always cherish the time talking to me
Well, i know that's the past and now's the present
But it's also one of the best part of memories.
I don't know,the only thing im looking forward after work
is to talk to him during my spare time.But then...
And i feel that he doesn't care for me. FUCK this feeling.
For example:" If i have mosquito bites all over my body
but if i hadn't told him, would he even notice?
Would he even care to even come and help me put medical cream"
Even if i tell him now, would he get medical cream and help me put?
This is not about telling him what to do then he do.
Its about the feeling called "CARE"
Its the intuition that he will naturally care for me if he love me
Its just like when i cry or furious..what will he do?
Just leave me there crying/furious or
hug me and wipe my tears and ask me what happen.
If a person seriously love a person,he will care for the person,
support her,be there for her through ups and down, he wouldn't leave
the girl in suspense,explaining thing to her,
if she misunderstand the situation.Vise Versa for both parties.
He would try ways to make his girl happy and make her feel secure.
Not by taking things for granted.
"CHERISH" is the word most people DIDN'T do and then
"REGRET" AND "ONLY IF.." comes in when the person left.
And i really hope bf will love and care for me by feel not just words.
Right now, my eyes are a little red and sore.Cried till sleep.
I cried because of the feeling of not being cared by him.
Because i love him, and he is important to me.

HeyHey Morning Peeps!!
My body is filled with Mosquito bites! Swollen and itchy.*Yikes!* :(
But yesterday night, i had a peaceful sleep,
because they had suck all my blood till there's no more blood to satisfy them.
Poor me! And Lazy me! These days i'm too lazy to do anything.
Well, gonna buck up and do my sales! I need money! Lots of money~


Hahaha Here's a very cool way
to turn ur bf tee into a sleeveless shirt!Try it~

WHAO!! MIA from my desk for most of the time in the morning,
Went to help Grace for her stuff.
Hope Joanna didn't come my desk, if not GG
Just change my layout. Nice? Rate it! (:


Now is ADVERT TIME
Having a headache of what to get me for birthday?
now, I've got my wish-lists at the bottom.so you can view it.
And I've had a list of places which BF and i have not visited before TGT.

Right,back to here again! i'm left with nothing to do.
I kept open and close the window just to view my blog.
I love my blog totally. Happy much *grins*

" A BOY make his girl jealous of other women.
A GENTLEMAN takes other women jealous of his girl "

So dear bf, which category are you? the BOY or the gentleman?
hmmm...

Dread Monday..always feel so sleepy.
Yesterday, heard a few shocking news.
Really hope my cousin is ok. Hope he is seeing this..
But then i couldn't give him my contact, i couldn't.Cos of my dad.
I didn't want my grandmother to know my contact too for several resons.
But when you need me, just fb/msn me, i will be there for you.
Just like you've been there for me.
Another Heart-wrenching news, my uncle had fourth stage cancer.
He had 3 children, the youngest child is only just a baby.
Hais, Life is so so unpredictable, thus, people please cherish your love ones.
And BF, when you need me, i will be there for you,supporting you too.

HeyHey! SIM OPEN HOUSE here we come!
Ask many questions on that day and i'm clear on what i want.
Then Bf and i had free popcorn and tour around the campus
Had nothing to do so we went to MegaBites cafe and eat.
The western food although it cost $5.90, they had very large serving.
The food taste nice too.
Actually, wanted brownie and ice cream,but ended up too full for dessert.
After finishing the tour, we head to Bugis street,Haji lane for a walk.
Then we head to CHeng Hao's 21st Birthday chalet.
and then home sweet home. Such a fun day today (:

Preserved Transparent Animals by Iori Tomita
These see-through critters are preserved in jars and
injected with amazing technicolor enzymes to make them all glow-y.
Break it down, Science:
“Tomita uses an enzyme to dissolve the natural proteins in the flesh.
He then injects red dyes into the harder bones and
blue dyes into the softer cartilage,
thus highlighting usually unseen internal structures.
The dead creature is then preserved in a jar of glycerin”.
You can even buy miniature versions of these… in Japan.

Rainy And Cold Thursday today.
Nice weather to snuggle under the comfy blanket and sleep.
But here i am in office trying to be wide awake.*MUST PERSEVERE*
anw, got to continue my SMURF DRAWING..


Here's Smurfette!
Not that Bad but not so perfect either.*learning in progress*

Morning pple !! Zao An Ni Hao ~
I never fails to feel so sleepy, as always.
Movie-ED 28 weeks later yesterday with bf
The movie ok only(Ending Predictable), as compared to
I am Legend(The twisting of story was unbelievable)
haha sleepy mode on for now, and no sports today.
SAD :(:(:( If this goes on, im turning fatter and fatter.


I love the hat and the blazer! i want~

Start my day with my mind filled with zombies,running wild.
HEART DIE ME!!

Hell0 Peeps!!(: Rainy Monday huh?
Rainy plus the blues. But BF brightens me up today.
We had lunch at Pizza Hut, trying the new pizza plus our usual spicy drumstick.
Then we had Earl Grey Milk Tea at Gong Cha.
Nicest bubble tea as compared to the ones we drank.
Then we went for a little shopping at the malls.
And something funny happens..kekekes only he n i know.
we shall keep it a secret.shhhhh~
Abd then Back to work again.Quite bored too.
MP/SIP is over.i shall slack and make use of the free time.

Anw,Click Photos of today's luncH (:(:(:

I feel so uncomfortable now!!maybe I shouldn't have told him my family stuff.he don't even care. It makes me feel even worse. I actually thought bf will maybe be more caring n listen to my problems or maybe just acc me..but it's just my wishful thinking ..I should just kp mum about it..maybe I just kp everything to myself from now onwards ..shall kp putting a smile to everything ..pretend that I'm ok..I'm used to that at home anw..a fake front ..a fake smile..a fake me.

Rainy Morning peeps!!
THough its raining but i hope today could run smoothly.
And i've been having weird dreams lately.
This time round, was i drop my phone again and i ate my cover! 0.o
Then i change to my Cath Kidson cover.
Now when i see my existing cover,i feel like puking and thinks of the eating part.
Damn Gross !! YYYYEEEEWWWWWW!!


Anw, Here's a PROMOTION at MAC!!
CHECK IT OUT! 1-FOR-1 HORLICKS CRUNCH MCFLURRY..YUMS
(SAVE THIS COUPON AS IMAGE AND PRINT/TAKE PHOTO OF THIS COUPON)

And this is to my piggy BF.
READ THIS :
so next time must say gd night before you fall aslp/i slp. ok?


Lastly, See this( For my Dearest BF ONLY):

Good Morning everyone!! :):):)
*Yawns* so sleepy due to horrible nightmares.. :(:(:(
Anw, there's so much to update about my life.
Been very busy lately too.. work work work..
I need my permanent position now ..due to financial problems.
Because i'm applying for UOL Sim GE part time and i need cash.
School will be opening on July means theres alot of things to prepare
including my 21st birthday ya! and blah blah blah...
Meaning, i've got to enjoy before all these stuff starts..stress etc..
And i wanna do these stuff before school start (if i get in the course)

1) Go on a vacation
2) Check my degree and change my spectacles
3)Manicure and Spa4)Explore places with bf (MBS,Kampong,Jurong Bird park,Night Safari and many more)
5)Try all sorts of delicacies with bf.
6)Go shopping!!!change of wardrobe..(in need of cash)
7)See shooting stars/ stars with bf
8)Let me think and will jot in down soon..too many to remember..


This tempting foods are making my stomach growling
Tempted to bake muffins for bf.. (:
Shall bake for him real soon.

This is my dream house style.
so pretty.My future house will be something like that.hehes

Seriously not in a very good mood. Why?! Dad told me not to discuss my stuff in the car. And what is he doing? Discussing work with my mom... DAMNIT! My mom ask him to stop the discussion and he got pissed off and continue ranting and then out of nowhere he involve me in the conversation (and when he involve me in the conver, its nothing good). He just pull me down the water and shoot me when i did nothing wrong. Damn innocent. When it comes to all the bad things, he will push me to bear it. when it comes to all the good thing he will take it. I dont know but if i continue to pity my dad, i'm gonna be very miserable. He doesnt thnk for me, why should i? Maybe i should do my things and be happy about it, heck care whether he like it anot. In his mind, im always the stupid,damn dumb , lazy,attitude, bad,naive,worse daughter. I seriously freaking hate my family. When they were the ones who cause these problems, they will ask me to take the blame and then happily get away with it, while i have to face all this shits. When i do a little mistake, they will shoot me like i've done the worst mistake and make me guilty for life. FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML seriously.

Oh well, everyday is all about work work work.
And then after work, by then i just feel like slackin at home.
Leave my mind blank, because i'm so tired already.
But there is so many things i wanna do. (All requires money)
Movie ( Horrible Bosses, Zookeeper..yet to be watch)
Having sold my yet-to-be worn clothes and buy new clothes.
Pack/Deco my room ( Too many stuff, but can't bear to throw it away)
And i want to go on a holiday with bf( have to wait till he ORD)
And many many more..too many already..
Wish i have more time... pretty pls

Yea! i want to be home with BF.
So shiok. Now he is slacking at home rather than acc me. :(
AND im here, feeling super bored at work.. RAWRS.



I WANT THIS PUPPY. Its so so A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E

Good Morning Peeps!! TGIF!!(:
Anyway , movie with my sis later on. Watching THE SMURF.
Hope today is a slacking day for me.
Felt super tired after Timbre with MeiQi , Dan and Chau Ming.
Encountered a pervert ytd,but the guys name him stalker.
Luckily, i've got two guy friends to protect me.

This is another encouter( i've experience many of this =.= ) :


When i revealed that im attached, no replies anymore.
HAH! The power of being attached.
Won't get harrassed by these messed up guys
hehes and quite surprise Brandon found me.
Don't be mistaken, he is my secondary school junior.
but was actually amused he found me in fb. Really. (:

Dear Dearest BF,


HAPPY 2YEARS 7MONTHS ANNIVERSARY !!
Hope we last till our teeth drop eh hehes
And its been like 2 yrs plus we've been loving each other.
We must stay sweet sweet and loving till old also k?
i love you baby.muacks muacks muacks.