I feel so fucking sad the last few trip of Bangkok.
Bf literally didn't talk to me most of the time.
And when with him he is either front or back.
Never side by side to talk to me while he did these to our friends.
And he thinks it's fine.
I practically felt like a solo trip.

And when I told him that he just give me that face then just quietly stand behind me all the time
I think I just break down.
Normally a guy would just apologies ,hug the girl or at least do something .
He just left me to cry.
And pretend nothing happen.sorry I can't.

I hate this kind of relationship.He even ask cl to talk to me.
Like freak. This is OUR relationship.
He just LEFT ME ALONE TO CRY.

I think I sooner or later if this goes on.im gonna break off soon.
I really hate that when I felt sad he just leave me alone.
This is not how the relationship goes.
I don't want a bf who only stand by me when I'm only happy.
But stand by me through difficult times.
I felt empty.
Where did the caring bf goes?
I felt that he no longer there with me.

Even in the taxi on our way home , I felt sad and almost teared when he said those things.
I felt really sad bout this birthday trip and I am too moody to even think about my birthday tml.
He just made my whole birthday moody.
Well he can tell me not to comment/complain for the Bangkok trip in case I commented .He just hurt my feelings .i Guess he rather hurt me than other people.
And I really hate how I'm feeling now.
I felt terrible .

Happy birthday to me