But i'm having the opposite feeling.These days i'm emotionally having a breakdown.
Although it's my birthday month,but it's not a good month for me.
I'm trying my very best to make my day a better one for me.

Well, i really have been wondering what's wrong with my life!

When i go out, i will get controlled and threaten.someone use my sis as the reasons.

I'm sick of it! mom keep asking me to tolerate till my birthday 

but I just wish this could be all settle at once.

No more controlling of life,no more sadness,no more mentally tormented by his threatening words,

no more having to be involved and blame and be a bait.

I want a peaceful happy life,i'm willing to pay my own bills,i'm willing to travel on my own.

I'm keeping quiet,putting on a happy mask everyday,

When i starts to keep quiet,maybe thats when i'm holding back my tears.

Ya i'm weak,soft hearted.I've been putting on a brave front for years.

I'm happy when im out.even a simple outing, i'm like freaking happy.

i just want to get out from this house,this misery.

Me being the oldest sister have to bear for everything.

Even their quarrel, i'm being involved.I so freaking tired,exhausted.

I wanna get out of singapore and have a break.

Can i? i really need a breather!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!